Every Thursday morning at 6:30AM I need to be at church for a gathering called Warrior’s Heart. Several men volunteer to do the parking signs, breakfast food, coffee, table setup, name tags, registration and greeting. My part is to teach the Bible lesson.
Since I live a good distance away, I have to leave for our gathering point by 5:25AM. That means I need to wake up by 4:45AM. If I do not go to bed early the night before I am going to suffer.
Many times I go to bed at the proper time but I experience a restless sleep. My mind is going a mile a minute thinking about the lesson and making sure that I have all of my thoughts clearly sorted out. Of course my computer for projecting the lesson on the two huge screens is essential.
When I choose to use my computer, I have to remember my power cord, my projection adapter, my remote control. Of course I need to bring my reading glasses along as well. I wake up periodically in a fitful fog wondering if I have forgotten something or worse, if I have overslept.
Finally, I am wide awake at 4:40am waiting for my alarm clock to start its early morning chiming. Impatient, I just reach over and shut it off. The next thing that I realize is that I am in the shower and do not remember getting into it.
Glancing at the clock I smile. At least my routine has me on schedule and ready to fend off the anxiety from running late. My wonderful bride is ready to go. We enjoy the commute together.
We carry on a great conversation on the way to work. It is a 23 mile drive. Neither of us remember what we talked about but it was fun while we drove into town.
I am the first to stumble walking across the street. No, neither of us have ever been drunk but this is what it must feel like. That is when I tell myself to pick up my feet, point my body in the direction of choice and then I can begin putting one foot in front of the other.
No one in my situation even bats an eye at this sleep walking. We catch up on at least three extra winks before engaging people for the day. God helps me to forbid myself from signing any important papers until the weekend. Are my eyes open or closed?
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